This book is a creative account of the author’s recovery from severe clinical depression through Mataji’s healing, and the transformation of heart and mind which she experienced thereafter.

Through these pages, follow the journey of how Mataji’s presence opened the door to a new way of life and helped the author encounter her ego and confront the very thing she had been escaping from her whole life: her real self. Explore how ordinary moments in Mataji’s company became moments of self-reckoning, and how that reckoning, again and again, made room for lasting personal growth, happiness and independence.

For someone who had all but given up – worn down by illness and a mind in which she felt trapped – the author’s encounter with Mataji became the most important turning point of her life. In the years since, she has come to understand that she is just one of several others from around the world who have been transformed by Mataji’s healing. This book is an attempt to put some of the author’s experiences and inner reflections into words – imperfectly, as any attempt to describe a mystic presence like Mataji’s must be.

The author’s experience reflects her personal journey and should not be construed as medical advice. Do not stop or change prescribed medication without consulting your doctor.